Tuesday, 13 March 2012

I got to go!

Helloooo peeps! Hmm what's up? Sorry I've been so busy lately! I have no more time to blog here. My final exam just around the corner. Kinda worried about it. I just pray for it and hopefully I can pass all the subjects. This is killing me man. Somehow I just want to give up but I do follows my heart and won't complain or give up anymore. Thanks god I still got 'Inspired person' in my life who always support me from behind. I remember awakening one morning and finding everything smeared with the color of forgotten love. I examine my own being, and find there a world, but a world rather of imagination and dim desires, than of distinctness and living power. Then everything swims before my senses, and I smile and dream while pursuing my way through the world. Life will never be perfect, no matter how hard you try. Even if you pour your heart and soul into it, you will never have that perfection you seek. There will always be broken hearts, there will always be days where nothing goes right. But I have accepted and learned that even the most imperfect things will always be made better with love, laughter, and joy. What can I do with my happiness? How can I keep it, conceal it, bury it where I may never lose it? I want to kneel as it falls over me like rain, gather it up with lace and silk, and press it over myself again.

When I wake up, I have to remember all over again that my dreams are not real and that reality is not a dream. I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said, than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life had been like if I’d just been myself. I am both happy and sad and I am still trying to figure out how that could be. Nothing in this world that’s worth having comes easy.